Usually this drive includes a little crying, a lot of singing, and one fast food meal that ends with a side of self loathing. Upon completion of this abstract journey to inner peace, I give myself a metaphorical slap in the face and decide it's time for a change.
When I was in California, I figured out something really important- how to hold myself together. I learned that by focusing on the things that make me feel strong and accomplished, I can overcome any bad day. I learned that making my health a priority was an easy fix for a lot of my problems. However, since moving back to Arizona, I stopped giving myself time. I pretty much stopped making working out a priority. I stopped seeing Sunday morning movies. I stopped meditating at night. I stopped going to yoga regularly. I stopped exploring my relationship with God. I just, let everything else take over my life and then stood there wondering why I was feeling so disconnected and frustrated.
But today, over McDonald's fries that I shame ate in my car, I decided it was time for Bitchy McWhinesalot to get packing. Just like that, I threw away the remaining fries and I went to the gym. I ran through a side cramp that was undoubtedly caused by the greasy little monsters that I had consumed. I put on calming music and I meditated for 10 minutes and then I sat down here to write.
Well that's not exactly true, before I started typing, I was distracted, like I often am, by Facebook. But wouldn't you know it, one of my friends was sharing just the words I needed to read!
Susan has always been an inspiring friend and athlete (I mean look at those abs!), but today her words were everything I needed and I couldn't help but share. Hope you don't mind Sus!
"At the end of the day, you can focus on what's tearing you apart or you can focus on what's holding you together.
Something I've really had to train myself on is this. I've always been the peace maker, the one that wants everyone and everything to be happy ALL the time! But let's face it- that's impossible... and every time I try to change the whole wide world in one day, I have to remind myself of this: Just focus on your core, on what's holding you together- your dreams, your passions, your morals, your values, your faith, your family, the people that support you 100% and want to see you succeed as bad as you do... Focus on that ❤️ Because if it's not holding you together, then it will tear you apart- one way or another."
Susie has more pearls of wisdom to share on her Instagram and you can follow her at @suswaters
Today, I choose the good. Today I choose to focus on my dreams instead of my fears, my passions instead of my heartbreaks, my faith instead of my uncertainty and the people in my life instead of the people that have chosen to leave it.
Goodbye Bitchy McWhinesalot, you aren't welcome here anymore!